People ask me all of the time how it feels to see my work in magazines and on tv? And as much as I would like to be completely smitten by it...its always bittersweet for me. Don't get me wrong...I am very proud of my accomplishments! But I critique myself soooo hard! All that I can see is imperfection, and everything that I coulda, woulda, shoulda done. "Next time I will go harder on this", "Next time I need to blend this more", "Next time I will try this color"...constant mental notation!!! At times I wish I could get that "innocent" eye back. The eye that never knew the jargon and rigamaro of the make up industry...the detail and complexity of all that goes into beating a face. So I can simply see my work like others do. I am aware that everyone is harder on themselves, I see women do it all the time! But having your work across the pages and TV screens of America is a little different. I never want to be caught without my best foot forward! I don't think I will ever be "satisfied"...I honestly think I will be as critical of myself in 10 years as I am now! lol! But I guess, at the end of the day, this is why I am going to make it in this industry!!! This is only the beginning! I will get to where I am going! Or surely die trying!
Also check out my work with Fantasia in this week's People Magazine!!! (John Edward's Wife is on the cover)